Go Out and Do It, Damnit!

Ya Girl M. Here-

I'll admit it, I'm scared.

No, not in the "USA Terrorist Alert Raised to Orange" way, but in the "Damn, it's time to make it or break it" way.

You see, starting THIS TUESDAY (ahhhh!!), the sis and I will attempt to make our own short film. Now, even though the short is about five minutes, we're freaking nervous. The film, entitled "Refugee" is gonna be filmed on a wind-up Bolex, you know, those ancient cameras that are heavy and hard to manuever? We're gonna shoot for 3 consecutive days, in the mornings starting whenever the hell the sun chooses to rise. We're probably going to do some running and using stuff that isn't ours and trying to route people away from the set (which is outside) and blah, blah, blah (nothing too illegal).

Because we're poor and we can't afford that digital shit, we're gonna have to do a meter reading (and I swear, I just learned how to use it semi-correctly today) for each shot...and because the film is Kodak B&W Reversal, we're gonna have a helluvah time getting the light readings correct, so that when all is said and done, we're not looking at blown out or too dark film.

We just got through a shoot on another woman's film (pics will be up soon) and it was a really great learning experience. I was a bit nervous ( and still am) about how her film will develop. I don't want it to be ruined because I didn't know how to use the light meter. And I don't want MY film to be screwed up because I didn't know how to use it either. That's why I am forcing my professor (who, even though he's a nice guy, seems to be not that into teaching) to actually show me FOR REAL how to use this thing.

All in all though, that shoot was pretty exciting, even if it was tiring. Besides, the director fed us coca cola and tuna and crackers! Seriously, it was free and FREE always=DELICIOUS.

To make things a bit more complicated, as you all probably know, I have to create ANOTHER film for my class this weekend coming up, which is making this week, REALLY HECTIC. I have some actors, a location and my crew...I just gotta geta movin' on it!

Yet, even through all of my complaining, I still think that the sis and I are going to have a great time. I mean, we're making a film...and not just your lame "watch me do stupid shit" Youtube videos. We're making a film that we CAN and WILL submit to festivals.

We're making a film! We're making a film! We're making a film!

There, I said it three times, and I'm still scared.

Because even though we may try our hardest and our ideas may be the most awesome ideas to hit the film industry, we still have to rely on OTHER people to get it out there. It'd be amazing to get accepted to some film festivals, and it would be ever more so to actually win something (preferrably a cash prize for a certain someone's student loans, *ehem*), but we're still left in the hands of other people who may not agree with our philosophy or our "artistic visions".

But, I'm just happy that we're putting ourselves out there, and that at least, even if it doesn't turn out the way we want it to, we can say we gave it our best shot.

Now, off to filmming!!!